Wish us luck

J-Man’s autism evaluation is tomorrow morning. My brain still hurts from the preliminary conversation we had today with the county about his transition from Early Intervention to preschool in six months. I don’t even know where to start with the fire hose of information that entails.

In any case, time to switch gears to our big day tomorrow. What we’re hoping for tomorrow is an evaluation that accurately describes where he is in his life right now so he can get whatever he needs to be the best Little Man he can be. We have confidence in the evaluator; our hope is just that he feels comfortable enough to be himself during the evaluation. He really struggled with the Early Intervention evaluations, but those were some time back and with evaluators we had less confidence in. Hopefully this one will be easier for him.

He gets frustrated with himself pretty easily now, though, and watching your child struggle through that is one of the hardest emotions a parent can bear. If you’re going through this, you already know what I mean. And you also know how much you or I would do if we could just carry some our children’s struggles for them, even for a little while.

I’ve said this to our various evaluators and teams before, and I think it’s worth repeating here. When we get the results of an evaluation, we don’t want to think we know; we want to know we know. I know that’s a lot to ask at this point, but it’s the standard I’ve set for us to work toward.

I know the reality is that there’s a lot of educated guessing at this stage. It’s the professionals who admit that and make their best call from that who I respect. It’s the ones that swoop in for an hour and pronounce judgments who I don’t. We have plenty of reason to believe that tomorrow we’ll be getting the best possible evaluation we can get at this time.

In three weeks, we’ll get the results of tomorrow’s session. That’ll be a long wait. It’ll still be a relief to get to noon tomorrow and have this behind us. We’ll cross that next bridge when we get there.